Or make an attempt to
And fail…yet again
The pull of the dunya is real Ya Ikhwaan
I ask myself
My head is willing…my heart is willing
but why do my actions still fail me?
I try to make dua
To the last conversation I had
The last image I looked upon
The last chore I engaged in
In the pauses of frustuation I realise why
You cannot want, without action
You cannot bath in the waters of eeman
and whirl in the dust of Jahannam
Then hope for a miracle
Fool that you are beleiver
You cannot have the frivolities of this world
And want or earn the gems of the Hereafter
Is it not for this that we are warned to surround ourselves
with Halal and unharmful?
Food, drink, company, earnings
If its not untainted
then the journey to return will always fail.
So, start simple.
Leave the late night unhealthy eating
That make you too full to even recite your night dua
Leave the night entertainment that befuddles your mind
And makes the morning engagement with your Lord mindless
Say goodbye to the ones, who glamorise the lifestyle
you are in doubt of and are trying so hard to leave behind
Engage in less conversation away from the memories of your Rabb
Plan your day with not just your ‘standing’on time
But truly engage your Rabb
Learn about Him…anew and all over again
Read about the Prophet(SAW)…anew and all over again
Be inspired by the rightoeus ones…anew and all over again
Recite, litsen and understand the Quran…anew and all over again
Return…a little at a time.
Call an old friend or family member.
Make a new friend…give naseehah to someone and in turn, give yourself
You must leave before you can return
Return Ya Ikhwaan.
Return to Allah.